catch up

the highlights:

+ I went home this past weekend. It was nice. I always enjoy shopping with my mom. Sleeping on the couch...not so great.

+ I went rollerblading with Rosie tonight. And I didn't fall once. I haven't rollerbladed in about ten years.

+ There was the most amazing rainbow I've ever seen today at school. There were two of them actually, and one of them was complete. So awesome!

+ I'm in over my head when it comes to homework these days.

+ I talked to Jordan about wedding things today. She and I have been planning our weddings since we were fourteen. Of course, Justin was always her groom and mine changed daily. I can't believe she's planning it for real this time! I wish I could be there to plan it with her though.

+ I moved my electric piano to school last night and it put it together this afternoon. I felt like a dork, but I love it :)

+ All things considered, I'm pretty much content.

I think we should just be friends.

I deactivated my Facebook account today. We had the "It's not you; it's me" talk and everything. I think it's for the best.

That said, please stop worrying. You didn't do anything. Yes, we [probably] are still friends. No, I didn't block you.

that and this

A random selection of today's thoughts:

-Everytime I see someone on campus using the waist strap on their backpack, I can't help singing "we love the German tourist" in my head.

-I think I'm going to get some rollerblades.

-Who decided that leggings should replace pants? Really...I'd like to meet that person.

-My sister's only 7 (driving) hrs. away for the next week and a half, and I don't get to see her :(

-I am so ready for fall...crunchy leaves, apple cider, and cute jackets here I come!

-I really miss listening to alternative radio.

-My mom watched Glee yesterday because she missed me. How cute is that?

what's in a name?

I'm liking this new college life of mine. There are people, places, and things that I miss, but they'll still be there when I get back...hopefully. One thing I'm really missing right now, though, is my piano. I just listened to Love Song which has a really great piano part, and I wanted to play it so badly. My fingers are just itching to now. With all the moving going on at home, I hope my piano will be accessible in a couple of weeks when I go back.

I have a thing about naming inanimate objects, and I've just realized that I haven't given either the upright or the electric piano a name. I'll have to figure those out. In the meantime, here's a list of some of the others:

_Gretchen (GPS)

_Ellsworth (computer)

_Bess/Bets/Bessy (car)

_Jorge (husband...the pillow kind)

_Veronica (Dad's truck)

_Fuseli (camera)

_Lancelot and Gilbert (stuffed bear and tortoise, respectively)

[more] thoughts on the past

I know I visit this topic far too frequently, but I absolutely love the past. It's not because I'm afraid of the future or I can't figure out the present. Both of these and neither of these are true to some extent, but neither of them has anything to do with my point. I love how the three are connected. Unlike my thought processes seem to be.

I've been thinking about the past a lot lately, and I keep coming to the conclusion that I like revisiting the "negative" memories. I keep thinking if it weren't for... or I'm glad that happened because... I know it's silly to dwell on the past, but I'm not sitting there thinking I wish I wouldn't have... or If only that didn't happen... , so I've decided it's okay and not entirely fruitless. Failed relationships, unwanted moves, even kidney stones have all been worth it. I'm grateful for the past.

One of my-not-so-favorite authors said, "...there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so." I don't want my past to be a prison. I don't think of it as bad or good. It's just a map detailing the path I've taken to this exact moment. And I am very content in that.