The other day I went back and read about a year's worth of old blog posts on Myspace and here. It's amazing how guarded I've become when sharing life with more than twenty or so people. It's also amazing how much history repeats itself...at least my history. About a year ago, I wrote this:
11 Revelations
Current mood: chill
Category: Life
So I've realized some things about me that I just wanted to get out:
1. I know I just started this with "so", but so what?
2. When I'm upset at one boy, I usually make some kind of universal statement on how all boys are stupid.
3. I usually let people see everything about me, but when I put up walls, they're impenetrable.
4. I'm not sure that "impenetrable" is a word.
5. My life is really boring, but for once, I don't care.
6. I think I'm losing my hair; I swear it's coming out in clumps.
7. I'm a hypochondriac.
8. I actually know what I want, and I'm afraid that I don't actually want it because I've never known what I want before this, so how do I know that this is, in fact, what I want?
9. I don't trust people as easily as I used to, and I'm not so sure how I feel about that.
10. The best things may not happen while you're dancing, but they do happen when you don't ask for them.
11. When I look back on it, some of the best things that have happened to me are the things that I've spent days crying over.
And today:
1. I still start a lot of my posts with "so."
2. Boys are still stupid...I blame society.
3. I'm even better at hiding things than I used to be...which is sad because I'm not that great at it.
4. "Impenetrable" is a word.
5. Life is: Work, School, Facebook...at least for now.
6. I'm pretty laid back.
7. At the same time, I'm easily irritated.
8. In everyday conversation, I usually say all the wrong words before I finally find the right ones.
9. I don't trust most people at all anymore.
10. People see me a lot differently than I see myself.
11. Friends that will be there for you even when you're boring are really hard to find...I'm glad I still have some.
12. I haven't changed that much in a year. I wonder if that process just eventually stops...I hope not.
2 comments:
First of all, I need to help you out with your blog header.
Second, someday you'll look back at where you are now and think, "I would never want to go back there, but I'm glad for what I learned." I promise.
Haha...yeah, I know...I thought about you when I got done with my header. But I really didn't feel like fixing it...so it's ridiculous and takes up half the page for now :)
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