On: Learning to trust

I'm pretty sure that the hardest thing in any relationship is to trust. I think this is true with our relationships with God too. Here's where I was three months ago:

I had a plan. I knew exactly what I wanted and where I was going. I had the job (ok, that's debateable), the boyfriend, the friends, the family, and in my mind, the world. Trusting God was easy. He was orchestrating my life exactly to plan.

Fast forward to today:

My plan? Nonexistent. I have a job (the same one), but I'm not so certain anymore that it's the job. The boyfriend plan is kind of on hold until, well, someone else comes along. I still have great friends, but most live too far to hang out or whine to. My family's still very much here for me, although to be honest, their faith in me is a little overbearing these days. And an added bonus--I don't really have a reason to go to school other than I need to. How am I supposed to trust a God who's completely turned from my plan without my consent. He didn't ask if this was okay with me.

It's hard, but I'm learning to trust Him again even though I don't really see this plan going anywhere. To be honest, this plan feels a whole lot more like chaos than a structured plan. I didn't consent to this plan, but I know it's the one for me. I'm going to get to wherever God wants me to, and that is so much better than anywhere I can get myself. It was a lot easier to trust when things were going my way, but I'm learning that they still are; I just can't see it yet.