"I need this old train to breakdown..."

Let's start with Tuesday:

Having a test in econ., a paper due in English, and a chapter to read and two pages to write on its importance in history, all due on wednesday, I end up staying late at work. When I get home, I'm tired and cranky after school and work. So, as I get upset about not having any food in the house, Mom tries to pacify me with some dinner, and I grumpily thank her. Then I start my paper. I stay up until 2:00am. and get up at 6:30 am to finish it. The only thing I have accomplished by 9:00 when I have to leave for class is my poorly written paper and part of my chapter for history read.

Ok, Wednesday. Preface: I prayed for school to be cancelled all day on Tuesday...the weather wasn't as bad as predicted, therefore, the school was still open on Wednesday.
Ok, back to Wednesday. I arrived to school five minutes before class started. I took my econ test, which I had not studied for at all, and found that if I would've studied I probably would have aced it. I guess I'll see how I did without studying and 4 hours of sleep.
Class ended at 10:55, and I headed for my English class at 11:00...the only class I was prepared for. Surprise! My teacher was sick, so we had a substitute, and best yet...our papers weren't due until next Wednesday! Great, the only thing that I had gotten done...the thing that I spent my entire night and morning on. Thanks. I'm really glad that it's not due until next Wed. now! Really, I am. The only good thing out of this...we were able to work on anything during English, and I chose to work on history, which I hastily finished.
So, I went over to the other building for some lunch, and while trying to access the internet on my ipod (one of the main reasons I wanted an itouch) the screen repeatedly decided to tell me that my username or password was incorrect...after I had been able to get on last week.
Ok, so history. It's ok. I can't really understand the professor because he talks down into his legal pad and mumbles, but I can handle that. However, it looks like I don't understand the concept of the whole writing assignment that we have after every chapter and I only received a 5/10. Great, thanks, I'll work on that. Ok, it's not that I don't understand it, it's because I do it in 15 minutes.

After work, which there's a story here too that I won't go into, I went home and ate dinner and slept for six hours! I was, needless to say, exhausted! Physically and mentally. So, when I got online at 12:00am and talked to a friend who told me some news that's not really horrible but in my weakened state I found to be the end of the world, I kind of broke down.

Now, I know that it sounds like I'm just whining, and that's probably because I am. But if I don't, everything's just going to be stuck inside of me. I know that the reason I feel so overwhelmed right now is almost completely my own fault. But I can't take that away. I'm working on it. But I feel so scared right now for so many different reasons. I just want everything to stop, so that I can look at the big picture and say, Ok, I know everything's eventually going to be okay. I know it's useless to worry, but I really am scared. And I know that everything will work out in the end, but it's just hard when all I see is everything crumbling.