Little Bits

It's been a while since I've had much to say. Let me rephrase that; it's been a while since I knew how to say what I've wanted to say. I think this past month has been about shifting for me. I've gone through a lot of little changes--nothing very significant, but when you add them all up, it amounts to at least a little something. Let's go back to mid August. I moved back home from camp. I know, I know...I only lived four miles away and worked with my parents. But it's different working with your parents and living with them. There just seem to be a few more disagreements now than during the summer. Let's move on to August 21st--I lost my best friend to the North (Northern Michigan University that is). I think that's been the hardest part.

Kelsey and I haven't been friends long (about 2 1/2 years), but you wouldn't know that if you saw us hanging out. I guess it's meant to happen sooner or later. Things change; people move; you make adjustments. I just didn't think that I'd be the one left here. I thought I'd be changing and moving with everyone else. It was different when my family first moved out here. I was a stubborn sixteen year old who was mad at the world and even more mad at her parents, but that's changed as well. I'm not mad anymore, and even though my parents and I still disagree on a lot of things, I love them more than I can express. I've finally found a least a piece of God's plan in moving us out here, and it's a big piece--a subject for a later post.

So back to Kelsey leaving. She was really the only person close by that I could just hang out with whenever either of us needed to. It's not like she's vanished off the face of the planet. We still talk some and frequently leave each other inappropriate comments, but she's not just down the street anymore. I just miss it.

I know all of this sounds melancholy and like I hate life. I don't. I'm still very much in love with it. I am very very blessed, and I know it. I just needed a release, and rather than doing some kind of strange interpretive dance like Audrey Hepburn would in Funny Face, I just chose to share it with the world (or the 1-3 people that read my blog).