The End.

Yesterday was the final day of our summer youth camps. It almost makes me sad. But I'm tired, and quite frankly, ready to be done. It's been a long summer. When I took this job back in May, I knew I would be busy, but I think I underestimated how busy. I still really like my job, but I think it's forcing me to realize that eventually I have to grow up. I'm not quite sure what that means yet...but I'm learning.

On another note...I'm reading a great book right now called The Shack. It's taking me a while to get through it, but I'm almost done, and I love it! I have to admit, I wasn't sure what to make of some of the images Young creates, but it makes some great points that I don't normally think about and makes you look at things from a whole new perspective. I'll let you know what I think of it in its entirety when I'm done.

Still Here...But Almost in a Good Way

I'm still making too many mistakes, but the day just started to look a little brighter :)

Come and give me your hand; I'll take you far away...

So it's one of those days where I keep "finding myself making every possible mistake." And it's only 10:45 am. Oh well...hope things start to look up soon :)

La la la la la la, La la la la la la, La la la, La la la, La la la.

A Day at a Time

It has been SO long since I've posted anything on here. Part of it has been that I've been really busy, part of it is that after spending eight hours a day on a computer at work, I don't really want to sit on a computer (figuratively, of course) until I wake up in the morning and spend another eight hours on one. But, alas, here I sit.

Like I've previously stated, I have been really busy lately...mostly working. But I took Monday off to spend with Nathaniel before he left for a week. We went to the zoo :) It was pretty much a perfect day off; not in the sense that we did anything super amazing or anything. We went to the zoo, then went shopping in Battle Creek, went back to his house, went four wheeling, and watched a movie. But it was one of those "I've needed this for a long time" kind of days. I have been stressing lately about dumb things that, really, I shouldn't worry about. And because of this, I haven't enjoyed my summer very much so far. However, Nathaniel brought me back. While I was sitting there complaining and fretting about my future, he told me to just take things a day at time. Not rocket science, I know. But I haven't been doing that, and I realized that that was the reason I had so much fun last summer. I didn't know exactly what I was going to do the next week, month, semester, etc. And that was okay...actually, it was perfect. I'm completely content (please note the alliteration) with not knowing. I rather prefer it, to be honest. It's okay because God's not up there going, "Well, I hope this plan works out for Jennifer. I'm really not too sure about it. Guess I'll see how things go." If I truly trust Him, then I have nothing to worry about. Of course I know that I shouldn't just sit there and say, "Okay, God, I'm just going to sleep until I know exactly what You want me to do," because I won't find out unless I'm searching, but I'm okay with not knowing the answers right away. Half the fun is finding them out unexpectedly.

Well that was my long ramble of things that don't make sense to anyone but me. But did you know 8,000 Coke drinks are consumed every second?

Clarification

So I just thought I'd clarify something from my "Without the Dark" post.

I do, in fact, have friends. I have lots of them actually. I just don't spend time with them on a daily basis. So please don't pity me. I know that post seemed like it was a cry out for pity, but it wasn't. I was just feeling down that day. But I'm up again. And I'll probably have another day when I'm down and lonely, and I'll probably post something else about my loneliness. Don't worry, I'm not depressed--just whiny.

On another depressing note, gas prices are up to $3.99 a gallon! I very nearly cried yesterday when I saw that. Pretty soon I'll be telling "Back in my day..." stories of cheap gas prices at $2.99! Oh well, I'm not going to worry about it because, basically, it's pointless.

To Do This Summer: a work in progress.

• Go to the zoo.
• Learn how to play the guitar.
• Go to Cedar Point.
• Learn Sign Language.
• (More to come...)

Without the Dark...

I truly love my job, and I love living in a small town. I do; but lately I've been feeling trapped. Like the whole big world outside of Somerset isn't actually real, just a make believe place you read about in books or see in movies. I think I'm just lonely. When I was going to school and working, I didn't really have time to be lonely, but now I come home everyday with nothing planned for after work. There are basically two people I hang out with during the fall, winter, and spring. One of them is Kelsey. I know she's always there for me, but she has school stuff and track meets and shawn. And I don't blame her for having a life, I just miss her sometimes. The other person is Nathaniel, but he has just as much (if not more) going on...and he lives in Spring Arbor...and I'm a poor college kid.

I know my lack of a social life is my own fault, and everything will be fantastic once everyone comes to camp. I just feel like it's time for a vacation from the small town life and loneliness. But perhaps I should stop complaining and just be thankful for my great job and the amazing friends that I do have. Things'll start to look up. Somehow they always do...


Slightly related...slightly unrelated...

I am a huge fan of the Facebook Flair application...and I found one that's kind of cheesy...but I kind of like it.
It's a little blurry, but it says, "Without the dark, we would never see the stars." Take it for what it's worth.